அன்புள்ள அப்பா

அப்பா அப்பா அப்பா....சொல்லி சொல்லி பார்க்கிறேன். என் இனிய அப்பா. முதலில் எல்லாம் எத்தனை பயம் அப்பாவை பார்த்து. அப்பாவிடம் நான் கல்லூரிசெல்லும் வரை முகம் பார்த்து கூட பேசினது கிடையாது. Might look weird but it's true. We had tons and tons of love for each other. But he was so strict with me becaue I was the eldest. என்னமோ என்ன பார்த்துதான் என்னோட siblings ஒழுக்கமா இருப்பாங்கன்னு He was so particular about lot of stuff. Even with dressing, talking to guys, going to places, talking to friends(girls only) over the phone and so many things. I hardly had spoken to any guys till my UG. I used to fight a lot with him during my college days. But now everything has changed. I value lot of stuff because of him. I love you pa.

இன்னமும் கொஞ்சம் பயம் இருந்தாலும் நிறைய பாசம்தான். கல்யாணத்திற்கு பிறகு அடிக்கடி நடு ராத்திரியில் எழுந்து இப்போவே அப்பாவை பார்க்கணும் என்று அழுவேன். That time my hubby used to console me. போன வாரத்திலும் அது நிகழ்ந்தது. நான் Love comes softly series பார்த்துகொண்டிருந்தேன். No one was at home. I love watching movies when I am alone. So that I can react and cry when I feel like crying. Coming back to the movie Love comes softly - A love between a father and daughter was wonderfully shown there. She was separating from her father after marriage. That scene when she was going to board with her hubby in the cart she says my heart is breaking pa. He also says mine too. I couldn't proceed any longer. I just paused d movie and ran to the bed and cried, cried and cried. I remembered how I cried when I was leaving home with my hubby. Poor thing he didn't know what to do ;) tears were in his eyes too. Perhaps he will know the pain when his daughter gets married. It's the difficult thing in the world.
I still sleep in his lap whenever I go to my native. I am still the same kutty ponnu for him. நான் என் குட்டி மகளை கொஞ்சும் போதெல்லாம் he teases me. இப்போ தான் ....போட்டுட்டு அங்கயும் இங்கயும் ஓடிட்டிருந்தே நீயெல்லாம் பொண்ண கொஞ்சற. I feel so embarassed ;) But I'd like to be the same kutty ponnu for you pa forever and ever.